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Ethan Lumus

by Ethan Lumus

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1.
I'm free whenever you just wanna run around / I'm thinking maybe we could spend a day or two down by the sea / Grab your things and we can load up in my car / But leave your worries, they won't get us very far / Just feel the breeze / Oh, baby you can ride with me, ride with me / Top down for miles with me, love / I met you in the spring time / You look so good, oh, baby be mine / You can vibe with me, vibe with me / Waste all your time with me, love / Blue jeans are looking real tight / You look so pretty in the daylight / Sunsets and cigarettes / The way you're kissing on my neck / It feels so right / And I don't wanna come back down / No, I don't wanna come back down / Dim the lights and we can put a movie on / Cheap motel with ugly curtains, yeah, it's all we can afford / And for a single moment only me and you is all that matters / Oh, the things that we could do behind these doors / Oh, baby you can ride with me, ride with me / Top down for miles with me, love / I met you in the spring time / You look so good, oh, baby be mine / You can vibe with me, vibe with me / Waste all your time with me, love / Blue jeans are looking real tight / You look so pretty in the daylight / Sunsets and cigarettes / The way you're kissing on my neck / It feels so right / And I don't wanna come back down / No, I don't wanna come back down / Ride with me, ride with me / Top down for miles with me / Vibe with me, vibe with me / Waste all your time with me, love
2.
I'm feeling something underneath my skin / I glance across the room and catch you lookin' / Maybe you're just like the other ones / Come over, touch my arm, you wanna take me home / Back to your place / It's getting so late / But I'm misguided / I'm not invited / You turn away and dance with him / So I move closer to the bar / Try to look tough / Smile at strangers / All with no return / Down on my luck / Turn to alcohol for confidence / One more drink, please / You know vodka's always done me wrong / So I end up on the street / Yeah, they kicked me out / I threw up on the couch and on everybody in VIP / Yeah, I'm such a mess / Who will I impress / Acting like somebody who isn't me / No I don't wanna spend tonight alone / I scroll through all the contacts in my phone / I send out messages with no reply / I need you here / I'm begging you to please stop by / Here at my place / It's getting so late / Oh, I just wanna be healed / By the hand of somebody who's tempered and tender and real / I know you're out there trying to find me under a neon light / Maybe one day soon, but under this moon I'm feeling so damn tired / Maybe we'll meet soon on some other night / But under this moon I'm just so damn tired / Oh, I just wanna be healed / By the hand of somebody who's tempered and tender and real / I know you're out there trying to find me under a neon light / Maybe one day soon, but under this moon I'm feeling so damn tired
3.
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I remember back when I met you / Wore a plaid shirt, denim and brown shoes / And I wondered if I'd ever settle down with someone just like you / You were thoughtful with your every word / For a moment I put down the worst of my past life / And for once I set my eyes on something brighter / I'll never forget the sunrise days / Back before the fallout and all the pain / At the start nothing coulda been better / Spending days there with you forever / So, when the clock hit 11:11 / I always wished I could stay in heaven with you / Back in March there was a bumpy road that we went down / And I didn't know if we'd make it / But we kept it all together / Braved the weather / But after one year, I had time to think / Was I happy? / Were we on the brink of the ending? / So much comfort but our love was slowly fading / Called it off on a Sunday / I took the blame / Back of my mind I knew you weren't gonna change for me / It was over so we pulled the lever / Said I was fine but I was sadder than ever / So, when the clock hit 11:11 / I packed my bags / Ran away from heaven and you / Oh, I wish you would told me something / Oh, I wish I coulda seen this coming / In the end I coulda handled it better / But I was mad / Thought that you were forever / So, when the clock hits 11:11 / I always wish I was back in heaven with you
4.
Why can I never fall in love with someone? / Why can I never keep anyone around? / The things that hold us all together always seem so large / But in reality, they'll break with one, single sound / No, I don't understand how people change / 'Cause all the things that haunt me are still the same, yeah / I don't know how I'm gonna make it through on my own / But I'm gonna try / I'm getting older and I can't stop the fear / My skin is burning in the heat of the sun / And all the water I drank from my hands is dried and gone / I lie down, listen for you / But I am all alone / No, I don't understand how people change / 'Cause all the things that haunt me are still the same, yeah / I don't know how I'm gonna make it through on my own / But I'm gonna try / I don't understand how people change / 'Cause all the things that haunt me are still the same, yeah
5.
So here's the thing / I had a hard time growing up / And in the process I grew thick, thick skin / I had to stay tough / Catered to everyone around / But then when I fell on the ground / There was no one to pick me up / Somewhere along the way I realized that I am on my own / No matter who you are relationships go / So if I leave you overnight / Well, baby, here's the reason why / It's just the way that I survive / I think I have a right to be selfish / Don't tell me that I cannot be reckless / I think I have a right to be selfish / Rode alone so long I just can't help it / Had my fair share of people try to bring me down / If they only knew how strong I was they'd run from this town / I've got connections I can trust / I left my old self in the dust / It hurts to leave you but I must / I think I have a right to be selfish / Rode alone so long I just can't help it / I'm allowed to be sad sometimes / Speak my mind / Just recognize that I have a right to be selfish / And I'm a little bit selfish / But I don't really wanna be / And I'm a little but reckless / I never give myself for free, no / I'm a little bit selfish / I never really asked to be / But I'll never be helpless / You'll never get the best of me, no / I have a right to. be selfish / Don't tell me that I cannot be reckless / I think I have a right to. be selfish / When I dream I'm a little bit monstrous / I think I have a right to be selfish / Rode alone so long I just can't help it / I'm allowed to be sad sometimes / Speak my mind / Just recognize that I have a right to be selfish
6.
Can you tell me to my face that I am not important to you anymore / Did I disrespect your name when I stood up for myself / Got off the floor / Don't even try to lie and say that you care about me / You left me stranded in the dark and I was stumbling / But then I found myself and now I'm finally free / I really tried to fight it / Thought that I could change your mind / No, never thought that I would / End up on the losing side / Remember what I told you / The night that all that shit went down / That we were really over / You made me pull my scissors out / I keep constantly reminding myself of you / You were my proof / You were my truth / I had everything to lose / That's why I keep pushing back / Now it's time to relax / But you ain't next to me. / So my mind keeps drifting / Our fights play back like a movie scene / Still here yelling in my ear from all the screams / From all the hurt / You hit me first / What could I do / Got me going psycho / That's why I got a. tight rope / That's why I got trust issues / Shit you did, I can't forgive you / Maybe in due time I'll forget / Still I carry this pain like a vest / I really tried to fight it / Thought that I could change your mind / No, never thought that I would / End up on the losing side / Remember what I told you / The night that all that shit went down / That we were really over / You made me pull my scissors out
7.
I hear you're doing better now / And I hope that is the case / You're a grown man, 45, and it's time that you learned how to save face / Not to say that everything you did left me in shambles / But if I had to gamble on it I would say / You loved the drugs, the booze, the late night calls from women who would dance for you / More than you loved me / No I won't waste any time dwelling on my hate / I'm only writing so you know not to call / It's simply too late / I spent all my dimes on therapy and panic pills / To calm the nerves that you tore up / Because you were acting manic still / You loved the drugs, the booze, the late night calls from women who would dance for you / More than you loved me / And after all of the abuse / After every scar and every bruise / I made it through / Far away from you / Stronger than I ever thought I'd be / I'm far away from you, away from you, I'm far away from you
8.
It all started when you said hello / I liked the way you held me close / When your favorite song came on inside the club / We finally made our way outside / I thought it was a quick goodbye / But you called a taxi for the both of us / And on the way back home / I felt something flutter / And my body landed in your bed, sweet lover / When I closed my eyes / Tried to sleep I wondered / Is this real life, or just a dream / In the Summer of '15 / Come on, baby, take me out / Show all of the other boys how you do that special thing to. me / Come on, baby, let's go out / Show me off, let's paint the town in neon colors so they all can see / The Summer of '15 / You put the butter on my toast / I liked the way you kissed my nose / In the morning I could make you smile / You set the mood / I picked the songs / You held my hand / I wore your socks / So natural we never had to try / And on my flight back home / I just had to wonder / What if I had stayed there with you, my lover / There's a world outside / Full of real life wonder / But I'd rather live inside a dream / In the Summer of '15 / Come on, baby, take me out / Show all of the other boys how you do that special thing to. me / Come on, baby, let's go out / Show me off, let's paint the town in neon colors so they all can see / The Summer of '15
9.
I swear, if I eat off the dollar menu again this week I think I'm gonna lose my mind / And if I check my bank account to find a negative amount, I'm gonna throw my phone into the sky / But I better keep my cool / 'Cause I'll be out of here soon / And you all will know my name / 'Cause when I finally get signed / I'll know I didn't waste my time / 'Cause at the end of the day / We all wanna be rich & famous / Baby who could blame us / We cut our teeth on big, bright TV screens / We all wanna be pretty like the models / Say we've met Madonna / And if not, at least we know how to dream / A double shift again today, 'cause that's the only way I'll pay my bills on time with nothing else to spend / But if one more customer comes in here just to test my nerves, I may pop off and get myself fired / But I better keep my cool / 'Cause I'll be out of here soon / And you all will know my name / 'Cause when I finally get signed / I'll know I didn't waste my time / 'Cause at the end of the day / We all wanna be rich & famous / Baby who could blame us / We cut our teeth on big, bright TV screens / We all wanna be pretty like the models / Say we've met Madonna / And if not, at least we know how to dream / Yeah, I know I will find my way there / And when I reach the top / I know I will find all of you there / Ready to take my spot

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The debut album from Ethan Lumus.

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released June 7, 2019

Executive Producers: Ethan Lumus and Daniel King
Mastered at Metropolis Studios in London, England, United Kingdom

Phonographic Owner: Ethan McGhee

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Ethan Lumus Atlanta, Georgia

Ethan Lumus is a gay artist and dog dad of 2 pups from the American South. Based in Atlanta, Georgia, Ethan crafts a brand of indie/alternative that falls somewhere between Charlie Puth and Troye Sivan.

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